confusion of decisions....

life is all about choices...isnt it? we have two things to choose from. so what is the first thing that we do when we are given two options?
we classify them. we classify them as either good or bad. or maybe as something good or less good or more good.  or we loose our capacity to classify and keep on wasting our mind in the attempt to classify because it is only after its classification that we can actually make the choice.
i myself was stuck in one such dilemma. should i do this or that? what do i do? days i thought...hours i thought..minutes i thought and the mind i wasted. time went by and nothing fruitful came. in my tension of what to do, how to decide, i gave my tensions to others.
and then it clicked. what if i stop pondering on it. what if i just level them both as awesome?the path is different but the goal is same!
let him make the choice. after all it is him who gave me two options..so let him decide! i dont want to waste my mind!
so i have dropped my thoughts. i have dropped my feverishness of choices. have left everything to him.
you must be thinking that i am crazy...that i am still not at a decision. but i am one step ahead. my mind is at peace. i can concentrate on my work better. i need not waste my mind and energy on decision making. i will let him do it..he who has endless energy. i know he will select the best for me.



tensed i was, options i had a lot,
dont what to do, and what not.
at one hand was this and at the other that.
one was correct, but the other was not wrong,
my feelings for both of them were too strong.
confused i pondered, day and night,
a solution was no sir, nowhere in sight.
and then i called up him, for he gave me the choice,
you do the thinking, you make the choice.
for me both are awesome, one has to be done.
i dropped my hurry, and my worries were none.
for i knew that his choices are good, and he knows best,
he will do the work and i will rest!
i will not complain, for i dont know which one is better and which one is not!
i will just follow your lead, for you are the god.
ah am so peaceful, i feel so free...
just cant describe the feeling..i feel so free..

Love Story...Girls Side!!

Distance never separates any relation, Time never builds any relation. if feelings are true from heart, then we are always together.

Remember the first day we talked!!
She:" hey!! i have doubt in this numerical, could you help me out?"
Him:"oh!!Tjis one, its very simle. do this and that..( even i didnt knew the same)"

We became friends because of  'Resonance' the Physics seminar.
She:"i have heard that u are doing a research work. could you help me search some topics for resonance?"
Him:"Sure why not! come to the library and we will search for the same"

We became bestest friends. started spending time together!!
The NIT garden!!!
we used to
1.study
2.gossip
3.play
4.dream
etc etc

Time started passing. we spent 4 years!! a long journey together.
She: "hey!! what are your hobbies? what do you do in leisure time? i do....."
Him:"i like playing, gossiping, gaming, masti and masti..."

Oops!! i forgot.. sometimes u did hurt me a lot. this is the punishment!
She:"Hold your ears, kneel down and say sorry 100 times so that you forget hurting me...hahahaha"
Him:"sorry..sorry..sorry"

Now it was time for you to return...
She:"Atleast give me some memories...uff!!! memories dont mean materialistic....its ok...chalega..enough for me!!"

you are going!!happy journey! will meet again!!
She:" uff...as usual!! atleast shut the window panes of the plane!!dont wave your hands outside the plane!!"
She:"all the best tweety!! fulfill your dreams"

At last
She:..

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just another love story

hey...goodbye..
chal..tc..bye..aur tu kal aa raha hai ki nahin?
haan haan...i will be here..

and she is gone.i dont want her to go, but there is no reason to stop her. there is nothing more to say. all i want to do is spend time with her. just another 15 mins..but she is gone. little does she know that all the pranks that i do are to make her smile, and to bring that expression on her face. that expression in which she acts that she is all annoyed by the pranks but in actual she is enjoying it..
our meetings are pretty short. sometimes she talks to me. sometimes she just looks at me once, gives me a  smile and go away. i love that beautiful smile of her...
i search for reasons everyday to call her... and when i find the reason...i am scared to call her. what will she think? what if she feels annoyed? what if she doesnt wanna talk? what if she hangs up? what if she doesnt pick u and not call back?
god help me!
i am not a stalker..oh no i am not. but i cant help look at her. she is so...i dont know what. but i cant help look at her when she is around. that is the only thing that i wanna do!! and how on earth is she so naughty and yet so sweet?! how is she beautiful AND smart? that is not possible! ok maybe she is not smart...otherwise she would not be talking to me...yeah...maybe she is dumb..but she is so intelligent!!...
but by god she is amazing!!she has that special power to uplift my spirit by just looking at me. and i love it when she spots me and come towards me crossing all the crowd of people between us..god!

there are so many things that i want to say to her...but somehow when i see her i forget them all.. the only thing i do is look at her...
and the only thing i do is i look at her...

when i met sri sri ravi shankar...

march 9 2011. i was with him. i saw him for the first time. there were four of us and guruji. he was talking to everyone and he did not even looked at me.i had really wanted some personal time with him and this was it!  i had so many questions to ask him... he was so awesome!!he was energetic, peaceful, witty, laughing and short!! i had expected him to be taller!! i just kept looking at him and did not say a word. i was just lost in him. and before i realized the destination came. i was just happy that i got to spend time around him and see how amazing, dynamic, untiring, amazing, handsome, happy, always thinking about others, talkative, :) , naughty and amazing he is. then the rest of the three people got out. and it was just me and him. and just at that moment he turned, looked at me, he smiled and put his hand on my head. and in that second i felt like he understood everything i wanted to say. his eyes said everything. it was just me and him and no one else and nothing else.i did not ask any questions and he gave me all my answers.it was like he showed me the world. i understood what being around him means and of what great value it is...

i would do anything to get another of that second to spend with him...
this is my experience when i met sri sri ravi shankar...and who he is?.......he is my guru.
:)

the nirma song!!

this song is created by our very awesome Basanth bhaiya....and it has been prepared on the tune of washing powder nirma...

i am considering the simle fact that you guys remeber the washing powder nirma ad and its tune....
so here goes..
radhe shyam krishna,
radhe shyam krishna,
radha bechari...krishna ke peeche,
krishna badmaash pada gopiyon ke peeche..
sab ki pasand krishna!!
radhe shyam krishna..krishna!!

the dream

it was very different
very strange
 it started with all of us friends were going in a train.
 you were with us. we were talking and having fun. and u gave me something. something that looked like a coin and u told me to keep it with me. then i went on the top seat. i was jumping, cracking jokes, very happy.
  u were just smiling and laughing and then suddenly something happened. everything started going away.
  not that everyone was dying or stuff was melting.
 they just went away in a very strange way. which was scary. i could see them all going away. and i could see my scary face. it was all red. red everywhere.then only me, my seat and the coin like thing remained.
  then the seat went.
and the coin which was now in my hand, it became hot. red hot. it melted away right through my hand. but i did not feel anything.

  and then i lost my body. i felt so free. and i felt i could see everything. and nothing
 nothing existed.
just me.
 everything is fake.
 why do we have the ego?
why do we fight?
 why do we love?
  the only reason we exist is because we have to exist.
then why am i leading my self into emotion?
 i felt detachment towrds everything. and that moment was beautiful. it felt real. i was free. just floated in the air. and that feeling was...blissful. after some time everything broke down. i was back i had the coin in my hand. everyone was there u were smiling at me and then u  went away. no no. u were there.
u just innocently looked at me and asked what happened? why are u looking like that and u smiled!!
  everyone was acting like as if nothing had happened and maybe nothing had happened. i checked if i had the coin or not. it was not there
  or maybe it was.
i dont remember
i was just left with the feeling.
and then i woke up from my sleep. it was all a dream.
i have never remembered any dream. this one is by far the most clear dream. this is i guess the only dream that i can think of i remember. somehow it left some impression on me. it made me thinking a lot. the faces were so clear. the color was blood red. i felt numbness. dont know what i felt honestly. dont know what happened.
did not feel awesome. did not feel anything. it was complete numbness. 

a deep thought...

while we celebrate birth, while we celebrate the beginning of the new life we show sorrow and resentment towards death. why? i have never been able to understand why? aren't both the processes interlinked?it has been said again and again that in Bhagvad Gita, Lord Krishna says that a soul leaves the old body and takes a new one just as we leave our old clothes and take new one. without death there will be no birth.

people celebrate in life without realizing that this life has resulted in someone's death somewhere.

similarly people mourn in death without realizing that this death has taken life somewhere.

one needs to understand that this life and death is a circle. it keeps on happening irrespective of everything. where there is nothing to be sad about it, there is nothing to be happy about it either. both are beautiful. they have to be! after all they are gods creation. they are nature's gift to us. perhaps the only way to restart a life all over again and do everything from the very start. the only way to come over the emotions we have towards them is by being inert towards them.
but isnt it the emotions that we have towards them that make us human?it is the emotions, the way we think that make us different from other people. it is our very own emotions that make us special. and on the same hand to escape this suffering, we have to become inert.
yes this is confusing. this is a big problem that life throws at us. if we kill the emotions we  r insensitive. and if we keep them, freedom from the suffering is nowhere near.

so..what should we do??